Lets be real

Whenever I start to blog,

I write. I pour my thoughts out. I pause. I delete the things that are personal to me. And then I will re-read the whole thing again and think to myself that my blog is full of bollocks.

Anyway, I will try to be as real as possible.

Earlier last week I was on the phone with my best friend Debbie. Whenever I speak to her, things just make sense. Debbie is probably one of my friends that I can be real with. Our buddy level is the 'for realz my shizzle' kind-of friends which is why she can easily detect if I'm speaking the truth or lying. Lol

Put that aside, from our conversation I realized a few things.

1) I NEED to lose weight. I cannot just talk the talk (which is something that I've been doing since I was 14 y/o) Thing is, I have so many gorgeous friends with fit body. They are all so pretty and although most of my friends told me that I am "beautiful" I find it kind of hard to believe it and because I find it hard to believe that "I'm beautiful", I realized that I'm totally lacking in terms of confidence. I don't even have the balls to smile or say Hi to this perfect looking guy that I've been crushing on since FOREVER. *face palm* I'm usually very friendly, Damn it. So yeah, "Dear Body, please be more determine to have a hot body like Miranda Kerr by end of December 2014". Lulz

2)  If i want to get married by the age of 25, I need to give the guys who try to approach me A CHANCE. But usually it doesn't work. I tell myself this now but the truth is, when the time comes I will always say NO to all the guys. As much as I try not to rate boys by their looks, I do that A LOT. I notice guys by a) their looks, b) if i managed to close one eye and try to give the guy a chance, i will judge the guy by his 'personality' and see if we have chemistry c) Even if our personality does not jive with each other, I'm usually quite accepting so the third thing I will look for in that guys is if the guy at least listens to me or walk the talk. All of them failed at walking the talk. Finally, I will self-conclude that I deserve better. Haha. It's my way of getting out of this messy situation. Lulz.

3) Debbie thinks that one of my guy friends is having a crush on me and I think that she might be right just purely on how this friend of mine treats me but then again Debbie and I might be wrong. Triple Lulz.

So yeah, this lazy bum is ready to do her Maghrib Prayers and I wish xx would just hurry up for our meeting already, It's already 7.34pm and I want to go home. Sigh, The life of a Corporate Planner sucks. Bahaha.

XO