I am honestly looking forward for tomorrow. "Pretty" boys from work are going to catwalk for my company's re-branding event. *throws confetti* & YES I LIKE TO LOOK AT GOOD LOOKING GUYS. Lol
So anyway, last year i decided to tell my family and a few close friends that I'm planning to put on the Hijab permanently.
When? I'm not sure myself too. I just want to make sure that everything is in order before I go through with my decision.
I have friends who told me to put it on immediately since I have already received my "calling".
However, i want the world to understand that it is not easy to transform people from someone who is so used to letting her hair down, wearing whatever she likes and don't even feel the slightest bit of guilt when doing so to a person who is sincere about having a 360 degrees change from Head to Toe (H2T) for Allah.
Therefore, let me do it on my own terms alright?
I do not expect Muslim boys to understand this because they are not required to fully cover their aurat/aurah.
When it comes to making this dream into a reality, so many questions have been lingering on my mind...Like...
- What if I look ugly in the Hijab?
- What if nobody notices me when I'm in the Hijab?
- What if the sun is so hot that I feel super hot when I'm wearing the Hijab and then get a headache?
- What if I do not put on a proper Muslimah clothes that is up to the standard?
- What if people judge me more after I start wearing the Hijab?
- What if I give up and go back to my old self?
And the list goes on and on...
I do think that this is a VERY big deal for me. It's definitely going to be one of my biggest achievement in life and I'm glad that Allah has chose me to do this. Alhamdullilah.
So before i end this post, I just want to clear the air by saying that I've decided to go for my final clubbing session soon simply because I want to make peace with my past and move on with a beautiful brand-new future, In Sha Allah.
Hope to receive good prayers from all my readers (if any)
XO
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