Hi world, lately i feel like things are not going on my way and i hate that.
Firstly, i think that my boss hates me.
Secondly i am upset that i no longer have the privilage to park my car inside my office building and on top of it, i have to pay additional RM100 for my parking fee. WTF. It's so unfair cos I obviously make less money than the bosses.
Thirdly, i feel so fat all the time. I don't get why people still thinks that i'm pretty. Stop boosting my confidence people. Kidding, keep the compliments coming,I NEED IT. But i need motivation too.
Fourthly, for the consecutive time, i feel like a loser for not having any boyfriend. Being a singleton sucks 10 times more whenever i go out to socialize and people start asking me, "so are you seeing anyone?" Sigh.
Fifth, i look forward to get my iphone 6 over the weekend and guess what? It is still sold out. Really?
Six, i still owe vodafone five hundred dollars and i feel guilty. I don't know where should i dig my money to pay them back.
Seven, i want to be a senior associate, a better muslimah, married and as thin as Miranda Kerr (in a healthy way) by this year and yet i don't think i will make any of this happen.
Finally i need to start accepting the fact that not everything comes in your way but Allah knows best and i have no choice but to trust his plans. In sha allah.
I pray that Allah will always keep me humble. Amin.
XO
Monday, January 12, 2015
Saturday, January 10, 2015
2015
I can't believe that I'm going to turn 25 this year!
This year is the year that I am supposed to get married and I will, In sha' allah.
(At least get a proper & stable future hubby Elsa,lol)
Of course we all have things that we would like to achieve every year and here are mine.
This year is the year that I am supposed to get married and I will, In sha' allah.
(At least get a proper & stable future hubby Elsa,lol)
Of course we all have things that we would like to achieve every year and here are mine.
- I want my family,friends,love ones and myself to always be happy, content, healthy, stay safe, living life to the fullest and most importantly, not missing any prayers. (But i already breach the last wish)
- I want to put on the Hijab permanently
- I want to lose weight and has a body like Miranda Kerr by June 2015
- I want to be married
- I want to talk to my crush
- I want to be a Senior Associate by end of this year
- I want to visit my sister in Bristol. I really miss her so much!
- I want to be confident
- I want to get out of my comfort zone
- I want to go with the flow
- I want to complain less, be less annoying and bitchy
- I want to be more sincere in everything that i do
- I want the world to be in a better place despite our differences
In sha' allah, the almighty will grant all my wishes. Amin.
XO
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Where is my prince charming?
Sometimes I wonder, what is Allah trying to tell me? It's like he is giving me all this signs that is going to lead me to the one and as i'm approaching to the person that i thought who is "the one" and Allah goes "nope, he is not yours. Keep searching Elsa". Sometimes I'm just tired and feel like giving up. I'm currently not seeing anyone but I want to. SO BAD.
The thing with me is, i think i'm a fucking weirdo. I know damn well that there are some guys who are trying to pursue me but I choose to be choosy and I just know in my heart that none of them suit me... I might be wrong though but i mean if you know, you just know right? Atleast that's what i think. I don't believe in wasting time on the wrong person because deep down, i do know that if i truly am in love with someone, i WILL go all the way and there's no turning back. I will turn into this psycho-attention-seeking-path and just turn emotional all the time, even if it's over the smallest thing like not replying my text immediately unless you have a damn good reason to do so. Basically, I don't think anybody is worth for me to be vulnerable with. Sighhhhh . Therefore, if you are not the one and we have wasted time together cos things do not turn out the way we wanted to, why bother trying right?
This year, most of my friends around my age are getting married/are married/have kids/ seeing someone... Except for me ofcourse. Haih. By end of the year i'm supposed to have a boyfriend , lose loads of weight and bought loads of muslimah outfit for my "journey" to be a better muslim for allah. Butttt Guess what? I'm actually gaining more weight, still boyfriendless and i've wasted my money purchasing other things except for muslimah clothes. *major facepalm*
Despite all this, i am living a good life. Don't get me wrong. I have such an amazing family,friends and sometimes, i'm surrounded by awesome strangers. Alhamdullilah. But i just wish that things will improve drastically in the relationship section. I don't want it to stop at just having that butterfly feeling and then nothing happens. I have enough having the wrong guys entering into my life. Prince charming please come soon . Maybe it's not my #rezeki yet. But i do believe in his plans. After all, Allah knows best! XO
The thing with me is, i think i'm a fucking weirdo. I know damn well that there are some guys who are trying to pursue me but I choose to be choosy and I just know in my heart that none of them suit me... I might be wrong though but i mean if you know, you just know right? Atleast that's what i think. I don't believe in wasting time on the wrong person because deep down, i do know that if i truly am in love with someone, i WILL go all the way and there's no turning back. I will turn into this psycho-attention-seeking-path and just turn emotional all the time, even if it's over the smallest thing like not replying my text immediately unless you have a damn good reason to do so. Basically, I don't think anybody is worth for me to be vulnerable with. Sighhhhh . Therefore, if you are not the one and we have wasted time together cos things do not turn out the way we wanted to, why bother trying right?
This year, most of my friends around my age are getting married/are married/have kids/ seeing someone... Except for me ofcourse. Haih. By end of the year i'm supposed to have a boyfriend , lose loads of weight and bought loads of muslimah outfit for my "journey" to be a better muslim for allah. Butttt Guess what? I'm actually gaining more weight, still boyfriendless and i've wasted my money purchasing other things except for muslimah clothes. *major facepalm*
Despite all this, i am living a good life. Don't get me wrong. I have such an amazing family,friends and sometimes, i'm surrounded by awesome strangers. Alhamdullilah. But i just wish that things will improve drastically in the relationship section. I don't want it to stop at just having that butterfly feeling and then nothing happens. I have enough having the wrong guys entering into my life. Prince charming please come soon . Maybe it's not my #rezeki yet. But i do believe in his plans. After all, Allah knows best! XO
Monday, October 13, 2014
Lets be real
Whenever I start to blog,
I write. I pour my thoughts out. I pause. I delete the things that are personal to me. And then I will re-read the whole thing again and think to myself that my blog is full of bollocks.
Anyway, I will try to be as real as possible.
Earlier last week I was on the phone with my best friend Debbie. Whenever I speak to her, things just make sense. Debbie is probably one of my friends that I can be real with. Our buddy level is the 'for realz my shizzle' kind-of friends which is why she can easily detect if I'm speaking the truth or lying. Lol
Put that aside, from our conversation I realized a few things.
1) I NEED to lose weight. I cannot just talk the talk (which is something that I've been doing since I was 14 y/o) Thing is, I have so many gorgeous friends with fit body. They are all so pretty and although most of my friends told me that I am "beautiful" I find it kind of hard to believe it and because I find it hard to believe that "I'm beautiful", I realized that I'm totally lacking in terms of confidence. I don't even have the balls to smile or say Hi to this perfect looking guy that I've been crushing on since FOREVER. *face palm* I'm usually very friendly, Damn it. So yeah, "Dear Body, please be more determine to have a hot body like Miranda Kerr by end of December 2014". Lulz
2) If i want to get married by the age of 25, I need to give the guys who try to approach me A CHANCE. But usually it doesn't work. I tell myself this now but the truth is, when the time comes I will always say NO to all the guys. As much as I try not to rate boys by their looks, I do that A LOT. I notice guys by a) their looks, b) if i managed to close one eye and try to give the guy a chance, i will judge the guy by his 'personality' and see if we have chemistry c) Even if our personality does not jive with each other, I'm usually quite accepting so the third thing I will look for in that guys is if the guy at least listens to me or walk the talk. All of them failed at walking the talk. Finally, I will self-conclude that I deserve better. Haha. It's my way of getting out of this messy situation. Lulz.
3) Debbie thinks that one of my guy friends is having a crush on me and I think that she might be right just purely on how this friend of mine treats me but then again Debbie and I might be wrong. Triple Lulz.
So yeah, this lazy bum is ready to do her Maghrib Prayers and I wish xx would just hurry up for our meeting already, It's already 7.34pm and I want to go home. Sigh, The life of a Corporate Planner sucks. Bahaha.
XO
I write. I pour my thoughts out. I pause. I delete the things that are personal to me. And then I will re-read the whole thing again and think to myself that my blog is full of bollocks.
Anyway, I will try to be as real as possible.
Earlier last week I was on the phone with my best friend Debbie. Whenever I speak to her, things just make sense. Debbie is probably one of my friends that I can be real with. Our buddy level is the 'for realz my shizzle' kind-of friends which is why she can easily detect if I'm speaking the truth or lying. Lol
Put that aside, from our conversation I realized a few things.
1) I NEED to lose weight. I cannot just talk the talk (which is something that I've been doing since I was 14 y/o) Thing is, I have so many gorgeous friends with fit body. They are all so pretty and although most of my friends told me that I am "beautiful" I find it kind of hard to believe it and because I find it hard to believe that "I'm beautiful", I realized that I'm totally lacking in terms of confidence. I don't even have the balls to smile or say Hi to this perfect looking guy that I've been crushing on since FOREVER. *face palm* I'm usually very friendly, Damn it. So yeah, "Dear Body, please be more determine to have a hot body like Miranda Kerr by end of December 2014". Lulz
2) If i want to get married by the age of 25, I need to give the guys who try to approach me A CHANCE. But usually it doesn't work. I tell myself this now but the truth is, when the time comes I will always say NO to all the guys. As much as I try not to rate boys by their looks, I do that A LOT. I notice guys by a) their looks, b) if i managed to close one eye and try to give the guy a chance, i will judge the guy by his 'personality' and see if we have chemistry c) Even if our personality does not jive with each other, I'm usually quite accepting so the third thing I will look for in that guys is if the guy at least listens to me or walk the talk. All of them failed at walking the talk. Finally, I will self-conclude that I deserve better. Haha. It's my way of getting out of this messy situation. Lulz.
3) Debbie thinks that one of my guy friends is having a crush on me and I think that she might be right just purely on how this friend of mine treats me but then again Debbie and I might be wrong. Triple Lulz.
So yeah, this lazy bum is ready to do her Maghrib Prayers and I wish xx would just hurry up for our meeting already, It's already 7.34pm and I want to go home. Sigh, The life of a Corporate Planner sucks. Bahaha.
XO
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